I closed the door to my room and sat down on the bed. Putting my hands in my head, I prayed to the Lord, “I don’t want to hear anything else today. I don’t want to hear mommy, I don’t want to hear my kids argue, I don’t want to think of everything I haven’t done, and I don’t want to think about all of my problems. The only thing I want to hear, right now Lord, is I love you. You’re doing a great job, Nicole. You’re a great mother and wife.”
There are days that seem harder than others. These days seem too overwhelming where my emotions run from crying to yelling. I know, it’s shocking to me as well! After twelve years of being a born again Christian, you would think I would have this “life” figured out; I don’t!
I am a mom, a chef, a chauffer, a cleaning lady, a bargain shopper, a health worker, an author, a wife, a friend, a counselor, a prayer warrior, a time management queen, a waitress, seamstress, a teacher, and the list could go on. Women seem to wear multiple hats, are expected to run efficiently, managing all those around them productively, looking like a swimsuit model, and all with a positive attitude. Today, I homeschooled three children, took them to three eye appointments, then shopping for necessities; home to more school, lunch, cleaning, cooking, and planning the rest of the week. For some unexplained reason, my youngest, most enthusiastic son spilled his grape medicine all over my dining room chairs. This is the fourth chair he has spilled something on! The spill seemed to just push me to my limit.
I angrily announced, “I do not want to see anyone else today. Finish your homework and I am going in my room!” Closing the door, I sat on the bed and prayed. “I don’t want to hear anymore about what I haven’t finished today. I don’t want to hear another person call my name. I don’t want to hear any more arguments; all I want to hear is Your voice Lord.”
This is one of the reasons I LOVE the Christian faith. I can honestly pray to the Lord and seek His voice, His presence, and His love.
The world will continually try to tear you down, annoy, and overwhelm you, but God will always come to lift you up. During these moments when I feel the lowest, I seek Yeshua. I pray for the comfort of Christ, to feel the Spirit in my heart, and praise the Lord. When all I hear in my mind is everything I haven’t finished, all that I am not doing, all that I need to work on, finish writing, haven’t studied enough, haven’t spent enough time with my husband, didn’t send out the birthday cards, forgot to pay the bills, didn’t fold the laundry, am late to soccer practice, ate the bag of chocolate and potato chips, my husband reminding me of something I forgot to do, I close the door to my room and pray. Sometimes I put on my praise music, giving my heart to the Lord, my mind screaming, “I need you NOW!” This is the Christian faith at work in your heart and mind.
Romans 8:37 reads, “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ our Lord.” I love this verse.
When the ‘old’ Nicole seems to spring to life, I try and separate myself from others. I go somewhere, my room, bathroom, closet, car, outside, or a quiet place to pray to God. I am very honest with my prayers, “Lord, I do not want to yell, think these thoughts, say anything ungodly, harm another person, or say something I will regret; please come to me now.”
The women I have written about have run the gamete of challenges: jealousy, wickedness, sickness, adultery, hatred, murder, low self-esteem, judgment, sexual sin, etc. Being more than a conqueror is making the decision daily to conquer old habits, thoughts, reactions, and words. My old self would have cried for two days, had a pity party for how much I do, how much I pray with no answers, and more pathetic sobs to the Lord. Now, I have learned the secret of being content in all circumstances, prayer and communion with Christ.
Woman, it does not matter what situation you are in or what temptation you are dealing with. Being born again with the help of the Holy Spirit, you have the tools you need to control yourself. Remember, one of the “fruits” or outward behaviors, reactions, and appearances is self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). You have all you need in Christ to be this conqueror of your mind, actions, and re-actions.
Being more than a conqueror is a mind set of Colossians 3:2-3, “Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of the God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.” We have addressed the mind and your inner thoughts, now comes the decision you will have to make. Do you choose Christ or do you choose your flesh?
The comfort I receive in Christ is knowing that when I do backslide, which happens, He still loves me, corrects me, and encourages me to continue this journey of walking the Christian faith.
After my announcement and stomping off to my room, after my prayer time with the Lord, and after allowing my flesh to angrily respond to something so small and insignificant, I found my little, energetic son and apologized. I desire my children to walk with the Lord. I desire them to know that there will be times when your actions are not kind and you will need to apologize. I want my children to know I am trying and they see their mother honestly living the life I profess to live. I cannot rightly “train” them to act Christ like, and then stomp off mad when something does not go my way. I want to live by example, teaching them when you fall, God will lift you up, but you need to repent.
My prayer is this page addresses your desire to pursue Christ. My prayer is this page encourages you to fight your inner battle in the mind and heart, conquering those temptations you face. Whether your temptations are to dress more modestly, guard your mouth with what you say to others, whether you are conquering a fear of some sort, are being healed from sickness and hear a bad report, or whether you are trying to watch less television and spend more time in the Bible, I desire you to rise to your occasion and know Christ! It may be you’re humbling yourself to fight ungodly thoughts of men, ungodly thoughts of women, your desire for selfish ambitions, submitting to God’s plan and not your own, woman you follow Christ! Maybe you are trying to loose excess weight, starting to eat healthier, spend less time with worldly people, seeking a volunteer position in the church, letting go of the past, letting of rejection and shame, forgiving those who have so scarred you, for whatever this chapter is revealing in you, fight the good fight of faith, know how wide, how high, and how deep His love for you is.
My prayer is this page awakens a desire in you to conquer what seems to be holding you back, letting of what lies behind and pressing on toward the goal, the life, the purpose, and the plan God has for you. You are MORE THAN A CONQUEROR! Walk like it, talk like it, and act like it. You ARE a daughter of the Most High, predestined for a purpose! Glorify the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, and fight that spiritual battle for Christ. Come, let us lay this at the cross and give our inner self to Christ.
Let us pray out loud and CONFESS the Word of the Living God; a prayer for overcoming, more than a conqueror
El Shaddai, God Almighty,
Thank You for being an overcomer. Thank You for using such strong women to encourage me to rise to the occasion. I pray to hear Your voice clearly and see the plan You have for my life. I pray for ears to hear and eyes to see the purpose and calling chosen specifically for me. You’ve formed me in the womb (Jeremiah 1:5). You have chosen my gifts and talents; help me to use them diligently for your Kingdom. I know many are called for service unto you, but few are chosen (Matthew 22:14). I understand that trials, worries, and the pressures of this life allow some to give up, stray away or leave the faith (Luke 8:5-8). I pray to bear good fruit in accordance to the boundaries in which you have set for me (Luke 6:43-45).
I pray to make sure the calling on my life, running my race with perseverance, determined to finish strong, and receive the crown of life for which I was called to (Hebrews 12:1, Revelation 3:11). May I be a woman who pursues righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness, fighting the good fight of faith to which I was called (1 Timothy 6:11-12). I pray to never hide or be a shamed of the gift received by You, that it never be taken away or given to another (Matthew 25:14-30). May I go where You send me, to be as faithful as Abraham and Sarah and follow Your lead. I pray to follow my Shepherd (John 10:1-18) and feed His sheep (John 21:18).
I pray to be confident in Christ Jesus to finish the good work that He began in me (Philippians 1:6). I know that no eye as seen, nor hear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him (1 Corinthians 2:9, Isaiah 64:4). I pray to never be concerned with the things of men, but more concerned with the things from above (John 2:25, Colossians 3:1-2). May I be a woman who would rather please you than those whom are around me (Galatians 1:10).
I thank you Jesus for dying on the cross, I thank You for Your unfailing love that will never leave me, nor forsake me. I give You my heart, my all in worship and praise. May I be a servant that stands before You, who rose to the occasion in which I was called and hear those precious words, “Well done good and faithful servant!” In the name of Jesus of Nazareth I pray, amen