Jehovah-Repheka, The Lord is Healer,
My heart is broken and I need healing. The pain ___________ has caused is embarrassing and so hurtful. I am angry, bitter, and have no desire to forgive. I know I am to confess the Word when faced with a temptation as Christ in the wilderness, but right now I cannot. I know that I am to love. I know that I am to forgive, and hold no record of wrongs, but you will have to show me how. I am ashamed and embarrassed by ____________. His/her actions seem to replay in my mind continually.
With all honesty and an open heart, Lord I ask you these questions, “Was I not good enough?” “Did he/she not love me enough?” “Why is this happening to me?” “Am I not praying enough?” “How do I forgive and let go of these memories?” Father, help me to sit with you, at your feet with no distractions at this time so the healing can begin. Bring godly women in to my life, a woman who has gone through what I am experiencing to glean through during this process; women who will not judge me for my anger, sit with me while I cry, quietly pray with me as I struggle to forgive and open my heart again, and patiently wait as I walk through challenging times.
Confessing the Word has power and life, so as your Word springs forth from a willing spirit let it heal the recesses of my broken heart, doubt, trust, and shame. Lord, it is written, “So your word that goes out from my mouth will not return empty, but will accomplish what you desire and to achieve the purpose for which you’ve sent it.”(Isaiah 55:11). It is written, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9).
I understand my battle is spiritual for is it written, “you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts.” (Ephesians 2:1-3) Help me to be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power for it is written, “Put on the full armor of God so that you can take you stand against the devil’s schemes” (Ephesians 6:11-12).
If I have put my trust in man, forgive me Lord for it is written, “Jesus would not entrust Himself to them, for He knew all men.” (John 2:24) I know my healing begins with the healing of my mind and heart for it is written, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – His good, pleasing and perfect will.” (Romans 12:2) Help me to keep my eyes on things above for it is written, “..set your hearts on things above where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not earthly things.” (Colossians 3:2) It is written, “Therefore, prepare your minds for actions, be self controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed (1 Peter 1:13).
I desire to crave pure spiritual milk, so Father please, show me how to love and forgive as you (1 Peter 2:1-3). It is written, “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it s not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” (1 Corinthians 13:4-8) Show me how to love as Christ for it is written, “to be clear minded and self-controlled so that we can pray, but above all, love each other deeply because love covers a multitude of sins.” (1 Peter 4:8).
Lord, thank you I can talk with you openly. Thank you I can worship and sing with my spirit if I don’t have the words to pray. Thank you Lord for listening and showing me how to live this Christian life through trials and struggles I do not understand. In the name of Jesus of Nazareth I pray, amen